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halfamoonTitle: Two Lines
Fandom: The Big Bang Theory
Character: Penny
Rating: G
Word Count: 321
Summary: Sometimes you have to let go of one dream to allow another one in
A/N: For the record, I hated how "The Big Bang Theory" handled pregnancies. Bernadette was adamant about not having kids, but that seemed to get swept under the rug once her pregnancy was revealed. Penny was the same way, but the show gave her a pregnancy storyline in the very last show of the series. Why? Couldn't she just been a happy woman without kids? So, I got down off my soapbox and wrote an initial reaction for her that seemed to fit with the theme of today.
Penny stared at the test in her hand. Two lines. She'd taken several of these during the course of her lifetime. Always a single line, and always a feeling of relief after it. Now there was just... a different sort of relief.
She came to Los Angeles for one thing- to be an actress. She auditioned time and again with very little to show for it- a hemorrhoid commercial, a play above a bowling alley, and the classic B-movie “Serial Apeist.” She'd devoted so much time and money for acting lessons and her biggest break wound up on a cutting room floor. She'd even checked the DVD for that season of “NCIS” and her moment didn't make it into the deleted scenes.
Instead of acting, she'd become a damn good pharmaceutical rep, making enough money to clear up her debts. She expected there would come a day when she hated it, but that day wasn't today. She stopped scanning the trades for acting jobs months ago.
All these years she'd worried about what would happen to her life if she'd gotten pregnant. She imagined being stuck at home, her figure gone to hell, never able to go out to another audition, never making it up there on the big screen, never accepting the Academy Award for Best Actress. Having a baby meant that her acting career would indeed be over.
She thought of rooms with girls that looked exactly like her, thought of having gorilla hair glued to her arms, thought of staring at a television screen and seeing another scene where her scene should be. Endless preparation, but also endless humiliation.
Her life was so much better now. Every day she was moving further and further away from what used to be her dream. And maybe she had to let go of that dream in order to have a new one- one that involved having a family of her own.
Fandom: The Big Bang Theory
Character: Penny
Rating: G
Word Count: 321
Summary: Sometimes you have to let go of one dream to allow another one in
A/N: For the record, I hated how "The Big Bang Theory" handled pregnancies. Bernadette was adamant about not having kids, but that seemed to get swept under the rug once her pregnancy was revealed. Penny was the same way, but the show gave her a pregnancy storyline in the very last show of the series. Why? Couldn't she just been a happy woman without kids? So, I got down off my soapbox and wrote an initial reaction for her that seemed to fit with the theme of today.
Penny stared at the test in her hand. Two lines. She'd taken several of these during the course of her lifetime. Always a single line, and always a feeling of relief after it. Now there was just... a different sort of relief.
She came to Los Angeles for one thing- to be an actress. She auditioned time and again with very little to show for it- a hemorrhoid commercial, a play above a bowling alley, and the classic B-movie “Serial Apeist.” She'd devoted so much time and money for acting lessons and her biggest break wound up on a cutting room floor. She'd even checked the DVD for that season of “NCIS” and her moment didn't make it into the deleted scenes.
Instead of acting, she'd become a damn good pharmaceutical rep, making enough money to clear up her debts. She expected there would come a day when she hated it, but that day wasn't today. She stopped scanning the trades for acting jobs months ago.
All these years she'd worried about what would happen to her life if she'd gotten pregnant. She imagined being stuck at home, her figure gone to hell, never able to go out to another audition, never making it up there on the big screen, never accepting the Academy Award for Best Actress. Having a baby meant that her acting career would indeed be over.
She thought of rooms with girls that looked exactly like her, thought of having gorilla hair glued to her arms, thought of staring at a television screen and seeing another scene where her scene should be. Endless preparation, but also endless humiliation.
Her life was so much better now. Every day she was moving further and further away from what used to be her dream. And maybe she had to let go of that dream in order to have a new one- one that involved having a family of her own.
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Date: 2026-02-15 12:29 pm (UTC)And the overall theme is also quite a wise sentiment, being stuck in fear of the hardship to come is not better than moving along, knowing you will probably make it through eventually.