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halfamoonTitle: All Things Truly Wicked Start From Innocence
Fandom: Yellowjackets
Characters: Natalie
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Reference to character death, spoilers through S3
Word count: 467
Summary: As Natalie attends a memorial for Javi, she reflects on how he was the only one of them who was ever truly innocent.
She shouldn’t be here, Natalie thinks as she tiptoes into the memorial service for Javi, even though she knows that to the outside world, it might look stranger if she stayed away. They all agreed, they’d stick to the story, no one would ever know what really happened out there in the wilderness, and in the official version Shauna had bullied them all into, Javi Martinez died on impact along with his father.
Melissa had chosen to stay away, Lottie, of course, was still not well enough to attend. Misty and Shauna had turned up; Natalie deliberately avoids them, taking a seat in the back row, on the opposite side of the church.
Travis is getting up to give a speech; Natalie isn’t sure whether he sees her, possibly not, since she’s sitting behind some tall woman wearing a big hat. She isn’t sure whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing; Travis had gone along with all the bullshit at the time about it having been the wilderness’s choice for Javi to be sacrificed, but they’re not in the wilderness any more, he’s had time to think and to realise that Natalie is a big part of, if not the whole, reason that Javi’s gone.
He should never have been there, Natalie thinks as Travis starts telling some story about some prank Javi had played on him when he was in elementary school. He was so young, the only one out there in the wilderness who could have been described as truly innocent; Coach Martinez had thought he was giving Javi a treat, the experience of his life, by taking him to watch the Yellowjackets in the nationals, instead he was sending him to an undeserved doom.
And Javi had died for her, that was the worst of it. While Natalie didn’t believe in the wilderness shit and her being chosen by fate, a part of her still sometimes wondered if it would have been better if it had been her, rather than Javi who still had so much to live for. He hadn’t partaken in the feast that was Jackie, and he’d been gone by the time of everything that happened with Coach Scott. (Natalie thinks back to Coach Scott’s horrified reaction to what happened to Javi, and seeing the coffin which Travis had filled with some of his favourite things, while knowing that she was the reason why that was all that was there, she had to agree with him now.)
Travis may have said back then he didn’t blame her, but Natalie’s not innocent; as they file out of the church and Natalie continues to hide behind the hat woman as she watches dirt being shovelled onto Javi’s makeshift grave, she feels that all that was ever innocent is buried with him.
Fandom: Yellowjackets
Characters: Natalie
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Reference to character death, spoilers through S3
Word count: 467
Summary: As Natalie attends a memorial for Javi, she reflects on how he was the only one of them who was ever truly innocent.
She shouldn’t be here, Natalie thinks as she tiptoes into the memorial service for Javi, even though she knows that to the outside world, it might look stranger if she stayed away. They all agreed, they’d stick to the story, no one would ever know what really happened out there in the wilderness, and in the official version Shauna had bullied them all into, Javi Martinez died on impact along with his father.
Melissa had chosen to stay away, Lottie, of course, was still not well enough to attend. Misty and Shauna had turned up; Natalie deliberately avoids them, taking a seat in the back row, on the opposite side of the church.
Travis is getting up to give a speech; Natalie isn’t sure whether he sees her, possibly not, since she’s sitting behind some tall woman wearing a big hat. She isn’t sure whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing; Travis had gone along with all the bullshit at the time about it having been the wilderness’s choice for Javi to be sacrificed, but they’re not in the wilderness any more, he’s had time to think and to realise that Natalie is a big part of, if not the whole, reason that Javi’s gone.
He should never have been there, Natalie thinks as Travis starts telling some story about some prank Javi had played on him when he was in elementary school. He was so young, the only one out there in the wilderness who could have been described as truly innocent; Coach Martinez had thought he was giving Javi a treat, the experience of his life, by taking him to watch the Yellowjackets in the nationals, instead he was sending him to an undeserved doom.
And Javi had died for her, that was the worst of it. While Natalie didn’t believe in the wilderness shit and her being chosen by fate, a part of her still sometimes wondered if it would have been better if it had been her, rather than Javi who still had so much to live for. He hadn’t partaken in the feast that was Jackie, and he’d been gone by the time of everything that happened with Coach Scott. (Natalie thinks back to Coach Scott’s horrified reaction to what happened to Javi, and seeing the coffin which Travis had filled with some of his favourite things, while knowing that she was the reason why that was all that was there, she had to agree with him now.)
Travis may have said back then he didn’t blame her, but Natalie’s not innocent; as they file out of the church and Natalie continues to hide behind the hat woman as she watches dirt being shovelled onto Javi’s makeshift grave, she feels that all that was ever innocent is buried with him.
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Date: 2026-02-03 12:38 am (UTC)